For my Hero Kreed
Before I begin, I first want to bring awareness to the story of a Hero named Kreed Joshua... But first for those who do not know, I suffer from Autism, however I am very high on the spectrum. Kreed suffered from one of the harshest forms of autism, his story ended tragically as you see above... Still, he has left an everlasting impact with his story on his YouTube. Yet it did not have to. This is Kreed during his successful treatments with Cannabis, at a hospital in Colorado. To treat pain and mood, due to being non-verbally Autistic and having severe medical conditions. Some of which were not caught in time, even though tests were ran, and his mothers never gave up.
Without Cannabis, his form of Autism not only harmed him, but those who loved him, and those he loved deeply. He was in pain, and did not understand like even I do. Autistic people never want to cause any harm, that is why you see him self-harming, he hates being the way he is. It caused multiple trips to the hospital, what any caring parent would do.
However his parents during a severe emergency took him to the ER. They took him to a local ER in their home state Arizona, where the hospital refused to even admit him. A boy in severe pain that made him in a paralyzed state. He had also been there multiple times, and they could find nothing. Yet once the family said this is not right, our boy is suffering, they took him to another hospital in Colorado. Tests were ran and they found that one of Kreed's Medical conditions, was a genetic defect that caused a lack of oxygen. Now the meds used to treat pain and autism, both affect the respiratory system negatively, there is no reason that his condition should have went unknown for so long. IT caused severe nerve damage, and led to fits of pain where The Dr's had to use anesthesia. It helps, but the results afterward's are mixed, and there is no telling the harm those meds are doing. They sedated him, which does allow him to rest. But they also can do harm to the respiratory system...
Yet, this is the effects of the drugs hospitals use to try and care for Kreed. This is Kreed after being treated by Dr's with approved meds, which is used in all hospitals to treat this form of autism.... While it does stop the outburst, is this living? More importantly, there are severe risks with these kind of drug treatments, they can cause breathing difficult, or neurological damage. Luckily the Drs did allow him to use his Cannabis at the hospital, which I am sure made things much more bearable. Yet it is shown Cannabis can heal nerve damage, it is a great sedative and pain reliever... However proper research is not allowed on a drug, that could have at least prolonged Kreed's life.
This is Kreed on Cannabis, enjoying his life, regardless of his issues. He had wonderful days due to an amazing plant. And the last hospital he was in, did everything to make him happy and comfortable. It was not the Dr's fault so much as the system that does not educate them properly. Nor allow them to study this plant that could cure some forms of Autism, and save many lives. It allows them to live without Limits... Like any person should, free and able to enjoy life. Free of pain, free to feel joy, love and hope.
Sadly we know how Kreed's story ends, yet we see in the above clip Cannabis gave this boy a quality of life he never knew. The first video I saw was showing how Cannabis was healing this boy's pain, then I googled further and found out, this bright wonderful soul, who was suffering from severe pain due to several conditions, passed away.
He had several issues beyond Autism, severe medical conditions, and if you care to learn more about this true life Hero, and his amazing family please visit Kreed's World Blog. Where they teach about the device Kreed used to communicate with, the device that gave him a voice, and allowed his moms to know their son. However suffering from a much higher functioning level of autism, has made me want to not only speak out further, but also educate you on why this amazing soul could have lived a longer life. If only for better medical care, better Doctors, and a government that cared for souls like his.
Cannabis can not only relax or take away the symptoms of Autism, as it does for me daily, it treats many, many other illnesses. The information, however, is being suppressed, and after seeing this story and knowing what I know about this Countries medical system, it is clear those in power, do not wish to help these tortured but beautiful souls. With the medications used to treat autism, often leading to worse medical conditions. Kreed was only put on major narcotics near the end, due to severe pain. This may not have made his condition worsen, but there are studies and cases that show it is possible. Do not take my word for it, do the research yourself. Pain pills can cause respiratory issues, among many other harmful side effects. Yet Dr's give them like candy, while saying Cannabis is too unsafe and addictive for kids...
This is who I am, you can see through my writing and my recently published Novella, that I could appear simply like a strange one or almost normal. I always thought I was just a messed up kid, I would have fits of depression, rage... I thought I was Bi-Polar, or just dealing with a lot of anxiety and depression... I have since learned I am very high on the spectrum. My art is my life and gives me a sense of peace, being able to tell stories that matter soothes my issues. When I write I feel normal, I can express myself very well through written words, but verbally, even with my vocabulary and love for speech, sometimes I just can't speak... Yet I am learning to overcome it, slowly, one day at a time. Cannabis is the one Medicine that helps me. However, my conditions are nowhere near Kreed's... So proper medical research is needed, high dose edibles with simple mixes of CBD and THC, can provide amazing effects for the worst cases. Yet it is costly to get the amount needed on a daily basis.
As strong as I have become, hearing these stories sends me into fits of massive agony... Yet listen to a great hero of mine Bruce Lee, "Do not Pray for an easy life, Pray for the Strength to endure a difficult one." Still, for some of us, even those of us who are strong, and understand our conditions and how to treat ourselves... We have moments when for whatever reason, we can not. Autism and Asperger's Syndrome are the same thing. Asperger's simply means your close enough to the label of normal, that with love and support you can feign normalcy far easier than others.
Yet few realize that Kreed in his short time on this earth did achieve something great. Had he had access to Cannabis at an early age, and had it been legal to where it would cost less than a bag of fruit... There is a chance, he could still be here today, or at least have had a less painful and much happier life. DO not let this soul go gently into that good night... Let this inspire you to fight for those who can not fight for themselves.
We stand and fight for family. Yet everyone just listens to the fact that Pot, Weed, Cannabis is evil or could do no good. I have a question for any Christian readers out there, the Bible said he gave us every plant and every seed. Cannabis is the one plant that simply needs to be smoked, or heated or cooked into food to provide healing powers, that most pray for. Cannabis can give people a reason to live, Cannabis can save lives like it did mine. However those in power use the lie, we have to protect you from this dangerous plant... To demonize it. They have no proof that it causes any harm, in fact, there is a pile of evidence that the drugs they peddle are deadly... Yet they you do not see many warning about those drugs, being a gateway to major addiction and psychological damage.
There is no other explanation for why a plant that could save lives is being treated like poison. Again to any Christian readers, think of the Bible, think of Christ. He spreads a message of love and is crucified for it. Weed allows those who suffer to feel love, how is it your right to say God did not give us this plant to treat our illnesses? Yet you never hear Christians saying that, the things that break people's faith, like seeing this child suffer and then lose their life... It can break a person's faith, yet as a Jedi I know the Maker and the Force guides us, that it is a way of life. I know that due to the agony of seeing this Hero perish, I may spread information that could save another. We are not here to save the world. We are here to love, and to love means to pursue Justice when need be.
Justice will not be served, till those who truly need aid are treated like human beings... IF you are Black, Muslim, Mentally Ill or simply a nonconformist you are labeled undesirable and undeserving of help by many. All that is left on this earth after we are gone is How Did We Love. I could be afraid to type this for a million reasons, but true courage is not the absence of fear, but the ability to rise above it. This is another Autistic hero Lucas telling the world how Cannabis has healed, and given him a life. Think for yourself, stop thinking of the harm it may do, see the good it does do. If there is any harm from Cannabis, it is far less than any drug we give the mentally ill. It also does far more than any other medication I have ever been on. It makes me feel almost normal, no matter how much I use, I never get high... I just feel closer to being what is accepted... The anger, the pain of knowing I am so different melts away, and I am able to see that through my pain, I may help another. Even if it is only one person. Kreed did that for me, so I will honor a real Superman's legacy using the gifts I have.
The device you see in Kreed's hand, is called an AAC, it is used for those who do not have a voice. This video is dedicated to that device, his family and to my hero Kreed. I felt like such a loser, and you were not, you were a hero who lived an epic life. So I will live an even more epic life, for you my friend. I made the video at the bottom of the page, to tell Kreed's story. But. also as a way to thank him... To leave an everlasting impression of my Hero. I used to think of Luke Skywalker, Superman, Batman and countless others... Now all I think of is my true hero Kreed. Autism is not the condition many think it is, it needs love and understanding. We often hate ourselves more than anything, even if we strike out at you. We really are angry with ourselves and can not control our responses... I used to break things, cut and also abuse the pills the Dr's kept giving me that, did no good... then I started chewing on my hands when I got angry, no more hurting others just biting myself... Childish but it worked... All the while I was using Cannabis to treat my condition, with the right strains and the right high does for my issues I am perfectly normal, and happy... Without it, I used to bite to self-harm... Then I saw Kreed... And it was like he told me stop, "I can not understand what you can. Find something else... My device helped me beyond my weed", it felt like he was telling me, like Obi Wan to Luke...
So I remembered how I used to cope, great music, Metallica, Janis Joplin, The Beatles, HaleStrom and Motion City Soundtrack to name just a few.., Then I went back into my love of gaming more than ever, searching for games that I would love, not thinking of reviews, just looking for games that would be fun for me. Trying to just live an epic life, while creating the art that matters to me, as I feel even if only one person gets it, that is enough. I found great games that inspired me, I wrote a Novella, I did so much... Yet the pain still got to me... No matter my heroes, the things the mattered most to me, it all felt meaningless... In my worst moments, I then found Kreed... And the fire inside that drove me as an artist, that gave me purpose and strength, even faith... Kreed lit it up like the Fourth of July. I now can never think of not having an epic day, I can not take pity on myself... I have it easy, I can learn and spread your message, your lessons and love. Even if I never bounce with you, laugh with you, eat fries at Five Guys with you, I love you pal. I also love that while I never had a father worth a damn, this boy got two of the most incredible Mothers a child could wish for. Not all of us need Parents like his, I may be in pain and damaged, but I endure. So I am happy that while I did not have a Family, he did... Your soaring in the skies now, like Superman, guarding, protecting and watching over us all...
Tribute to a real Superman, my musical story and tribute to my Hero Kreed Joshua.
You will never leave my mind, not for a second, not ever. You will forever be missed.
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